Thursday 7 April 2011

Age Rage...

A friend and I started up a little cupcake company a while ago called Ani & Lulu's,  taking personal orders, birthdays weddings and all manor of events where cake is required (which if you ask me, every day is a cake day!).  We do a lot of festivals too, but we get a lot of orders via word of mouth or referrals from people who've tasted our lovely cakes and want more more more! 


Recently a friend of my mums asked me to make some cupcakes for her daughters 18th birthday. I also volunteer for a kids club and the birthday girl used to attend when she was about 6-10 years old so hearing she was turning 18 made me feel ancient! Nothing makes you feel old like seeing someone you used to think of as a child in drunken pictures on Facebook or hearing they've graduated from Uni, sometimes from a course you never thought they would be able to comprehend or with a better result than you got!








It got me thinking about my age. I'm 27 now and turning 28 in November which absolutely terrifies me. I know it isn't that old technically, but maybe because I've been with my husband since I was 17, moved out of my parents house pretty much as soon as I hit 18 and I've had a job since I was 13 i feel a lot older than i should. I guess I've just generally been a little more grown up than i should be all my life, not necessarily maturity-wise, just in that I've taken on responsibilities most people leave until a little later on in life, like rent, relationships, budgeting money to be able to buy food, volunteering for activities, getting married fairly young and buying a house fairly young. I don't regret any of the choices I've made in my life, but man do i feel like an old lady! It probably doesn't help that most of my friends are younger than me, my best friend is only 23 and she thinks that's old!


Once you get married people tend to expect you to get preggo and pop pit sprogs right away. The fact of the matter is we never had that plan. We got engaged when I was 17, i doubt anyone thought we would be together this long, we got married when I was 23 even though i would have married him the week i met him, but winning over the folks and having all the family present for the wedding I'd always dreamed of was the best idea ever because my wedding day was literally the happiest day of my life, all cliches aside! We always agreed we would be married and enjoy being with each other for a while before having kids, but now I'm approaching 30 and hubby is 6 years older than me, it sort of limits the time we have to start planning our family, because although i want to wait to have little ones, i also want to be young enough to enjoy it!


Ah the perils of the aging process, and the most ridiculous part is there's nothing you can do to pause time, even just for a little while. I've been joking about not celebrating my birthday this year, but maybe instead I'll celebrate all the things i have done up to this age and learn to relax more because I've already achieved quite a lot so far!